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Aside for needing to just update more (prepare to hear more complaints about my kid and the general joys of being a working mother who scrapes for time to be creative), I have been thinking about how to make this a bit more lucrative. I have sold a couple more books and more people have been coming to my site, but at the same time I am becoming more aware of how I spend my time.

In order to make "extra" money, I've been taking as much overtime at work as I can get. And it doesn't seem to matter because no matter how much "extra" money I get, I either break even or am slightly less behind than before. My kid is literally BEGGING me for my attention and acting up because I'm not around. I'm always working. I'm working so much that on my days off I am so freaking tired, I can't play with her.

Though I love my mother to Reece's Pieces, that was one mistake she made with me. As a single mom, she worked two jobs to make sure I had not only everything I needed but extra: Dance lessons, Saturday enrichment classes, instrument lessons... I was a very busy child. In addition, on her days off she had to take care of the yard and house. We didn't pay for landscapers; she mowed our HUGE lawn and tended all our bushes herself. And cleaned. Didn't cook, though. Ma can't cook for shit. XD All this made it so at the end of the day, she was too tired even for a game of Chinese Checkers.

Since I don't want to make that mistake, I will be taking less OT in the future. However, there is still a mortgage to be paid and my kid will always be better served if kept warm and fed whether I'm around or not. :p And since both me and the husband work full time, it couldn't hurt if I explored some other avenues of income. That short story that got rejected? Rather than post it for free, I'll make it available on Kindle on the cheap. As soon as I figure out how the formatting works. @_@ Everything that's on my site now for free will remain as such but in the future, my short stories will go up on Kindle with previews on the site. As much as I want to be the cool author chick who gives her awesome stories away for free for all you lovely people to enjoy to your hearts content but, Lenni needs to keep her house. And eat. Food is great! :D Oh!! And clothes! Trust me, it's to everyone's benefit that I walk around with clothing on. XD

To that end, I'm back to my 5 page a day goal. And my journal doesn't count. Neither does the blog. Five pages a day of pure creative genius. I'll get there. ;)

NYCC!!

Oct. 7th, 2010 06:55 pm
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Lenni will be at New York Comic Con! :D Not that I'll have a table or anything (maybe one day). But I'll be attending on Friday as a representative of my library. ^_^ Last year, I met Jeff Somers so who knows who I'll  meet this year! :D

The day I get a table will be the day I get throngs of fans imploring to meet me. ;)

Hint hint.

I'll only be able to go on Friday since Ma has chemo on Saturday and I have OT on Sunday. But one day is better than no days. :)
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Who indeed!

I plan to watch that documentary tonight and reading the promos and looking at books along the same lines and it's got me thinking: I don't see much on women who have kids, work full time, and THEN try to cram their creative outlets in any spare few seconds they can find. Not that I'm the type to go scraping at new frontiers or look down on stay at home moms who try and fit their art in around their kids, but working full time with kids AND striving to keep your creative fire is an entirely different kettle of fish.

Who who the hell do I think I am? Ballz out, I want to say, "Whoever the fuck I want, bitchez!" Ahhh, if only life were that simple. First off, I LOVE my job. I don't want to quit. In fact, the thought of quitting my job to pursue my dream is shooting myself in the foot. Librarianship is PART of my dream. It helps me be who I am as much as writing and drawing so why the heck would I give it up? And d00d, all the books I can get my grubby little hands on for FREE! I'd be stupid to give this up. Second, I don't DO stay at home mom. I practically went batshit crazy on maternity leave and that was even with the hope of going back to work. You think the Lenni is crazy NOW, she'd be Yellow Wallpaper crazy under the yoke of housewifery. Other women can do it, I can't. I like having a career. It makes me feel independent and useful.

I get a LOT of questions from other women in my life asking me how I was able to complete a novel, start another one, write a bevy of short stories, keep a full time job, have a side business, draw, and all the while being around the kid enough for her to still remember what I look like. And I have no idea. To try and figure that out (and as a cheap gimmick to pry more blog posts out of me) I'm starting Mommy Monday. The lovely trials and tribulations of how the bloody hell I manage all this with out being on mood elevators or booze.

There are many times in my life where I really just sit and wonder if there are any other women like me who not only have a Third Shift; but a fourth or quite possibly a fifth. If you find any, point them the way here. I'd certainly love to know who they are.

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