atthequillsmercy: (Boot)
One is about this article from CNN about the trailer for the new PC game "Dead Island." The nature vs nurture debate on violence notwithstanding, I get a little annoyed when people use video games as an excuse for violence from children. I have a three year old and in the bygone days where nothing she watched wasn't from PBS (she was about two) we still had to teach her not to hit. Do I think I have raised an inherently violent child? No. I believe human beings are born selfish. Selfishness is a good trait when you don't have the tools to survive without help. Compassion is something you learn as you grow and realize you have tools to help others; and it is something I am teaching to my daughter. Niceness is learned and some people don't learn. Blaming video games is a fucking cop out! With all the violent media out there, why do people single out video games? I've read some pretty sick books, ya know (and I say this with pride seeing as how I haven't killed anyone yet).

I watched the trailer because I like survival horror games, not because of any controversy or anything like it. My honest straight up opinion? I was fucking horrified! Omg, the poor little girl!! But you know what? (dramatic silence) IT'S A GODS-BE-DAMNED HORROR GAME!! GUESS WHAT THEY DO!!?? So, as a parent, I wouldn't get this game because I don't like things with dead kids. It's really easy for me to see my own family in that video and it disturbs me on a level that I, PERSONALLY, am not comfortable with. However, as a gamer, that trailer is fucking beautiful! The way it's all constructed, the angles, the clean movements, the colors, the music; disturbed me in a way that would make me want to play the damn game! Which is what it's supposed to do!!

Horror is supposed to scare you. Dead kids are horrible and it scares the hell out of me for something to happen to my kid. But I don't see this game or Bioshock or anything like it as a disturbing trend of using creepy kids to scare the hell out of you. Because you know what? They didn't battle the Children of the Corn with candy and fucking gumdrops and Hansel and Gretel didn't calmly negotiate with the witch about to eat them.  T_T

On a similar track (and I enjoy the synchronicity of these two things riling me up one right after the other), there is a movement here to try and get paid parental leave here in the U.S. I would LOVE for this to happen seeing as I'm one of the people who went in to huge debt to stay home a little longer than the Family Medical Leave Act allows. I wanted more time to breast feed (because it's healthier) and to get used to being a new parent. What shocked me about this article is the comments. How the hell do people come off thinking we get some kind of perk tax wise because we're parents? You know what, as someone who is married or single without kids, you don't have to spend your money on kids!!! Why don't people get that?! You know where a good chunk of my money goes? Child care. These kids also wanna eat and you tend to get arrested if you don't clothe them. That's not disposable income. I HAVE to spend that money. And it's a giant hunk of my income.

"But you chose to be a parent. You didn't have to have kids."

Aside for how much of a surprise my pregnancy actually was, people who chose to be childless are also making a choice. People who choose to smoke are more of a burden on the medical care system in the long run which I pay into and I'm a non-smoker. Although I may not like it, I consider it part of a greater good because smokers pay for my maternity leave. You all are not being punished for being childless, you are paying into a greater system which pays for everyone. Suck it the hell up. T_T


You have no idea how glad I am to have those out of my system. XD

So, now that the bile is out (and I'm sure I've alienated a bunch of people), I can get back to work on my writing. XD I'm still hard at work on that lesbian steampunk story. I have 12 written pages and still going! It's fun! Why have I not thought of this before!? XD I also have some sketches planned for character designs for this series. Hell, any excuse to get drawing again, I say. :p

So, if you're still with me by the end of this, and I hope you still are, there won't be many of these rants. I tend to keep that kind of stuff to myself anyways. ;)
atthequillsmercy: (Lenore)
Remember all that writing I've been talking about? Here's some of the evidence of it. This story is based on some art I did (both old and new) and it's been kicking around in my head for YEARS. No sense wasting a good idea so here it is. That title is not permanent and I'll change it whenever a better one comes along. :p

I'm not sure what will be up next. I have a script but that I won't be posting when it's done. It goes right to the artist/my boss after that. ;)

So enjoy! Or not. Either way, go read it. XD
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Tis October so the familiar rumblings of NaNoWriMo are upon us again. Let me succinctly sum up my feelings on this matter: I'm not doing that crazy shit again!!! I did it last year and not only did I NOT make the word count, the words I DID write were utter crap! There is something to be said, as loudly and often as possible, for quality over quantity. I started the Dreamhunter sequel during it and looking back on what was written, there is SO much work that needs to be done to it which would have been avoided if I would have just taken my time and done it correctly. This includes entire scenes which were left out because I was straining for a damn word count. A complete and utter waste of an entire month.

While it is an admirable goal for me to try and finish a novel in less than 8 years (that's how long it took DH to be officially completed), that is not the way to go. So it takes awhile. You, as well as me, will just have to live with that.

This is not to say I have no plans for November. Quite the opposite, actually. For that month, I will be taking a break from both my novels to see how many short stories I can complete in a month's time. Not typed and clean, just start to finish, under 100 pages or so. Perhaps one will be the spring board to another novel? Crap, I hope not. I've got about 10 in here... *knocks head* But I need practice in keeping things short. That's what I want to learn from this. ^_^

I return!

Aug. 31st, 2010 11:54 am
atthequillsmercy: (Hypatia of Alexandria)
Back at dayjob from a nice vacation to a desk piled high with work. YAY!

That's right, I said "yay." Taking a break from work is all well and good but I am not the type to stay at home all the time. I will go insane. I did very much enjoy spending quality time with my kiddo. She can really tweak the guilt when she puts her mind to it. "I don't want you to go back to work ever, ever again." She tells me. A quick explanation if how exactly those shiny shoes that are just like Dorothy's, came to be in our home and subsequently on her feet, and it was acceptable for me to work. Yah know, as long as I've got her permission and all. ;)

Other than playing with her I worked out. A LOT. More accurately, my kiddo worked out with me. I am finally noticing a difference in how I look and feel and how my clothes fit. I am very much looking forward to Samhain this year. I can't wait to actually be able to dress up with my kid and not feel like a bloated hog crammed into some lycra monstrosity. >_< Anywayz, the P90x I'm using to workout works. It works very well. It hurts like you wouldn't believe, I can barely keep up, and I have to modify the hell out of some of the workouts because I have bad knees, but it works. It warns against people who are not fit doing it but since I seem to enjoy punishment, I jumped right in. Don't be like me.

Right now I am reading Anne Rice's Sleeping Beauty Trilogy. Uhhmmm... I'm gonna withhold my full judgment till I'm completely done with the series (I'm midway through the third one now, they're fast reads) but I'll say first off I find the lack of consent completely disturbing. I understand what it means to be a complete slave but these are young men and women given to the royal court by their parents who have no option at all to say "Gee, I don't think I enjoy being raped in to submission by the kitchen staff. I think I'd like to go home." Just... Wow.

These days, I'm back to working on "Greenhouse." Better get back to it then! :D
atthequillsmercy: (Boot)
This has been a pretty shitty week (including the weekend). Between chronic problems with hubby's car and a stupid fight with a friend, life seemed generally in the shitter.

Until now. ^____^

That's right guys and dolls, "Dreamhunter" is ready to be purchased in print or as a PDF for your hungry little brains to digest.

Now that all the drama is over, I can get back to work and get a less ugly site up and ready to go. Writing will take time, though. Stress is like a kick in the nads to my muse. We both need a deep breath, some quiet time to heal, and perhaps a couple beers.

And hugs. Plenty of hugs.

Oh, and this is WIN. The Last Airbender movie sucked ass. Fan or no fan - and I am a HUGE fan of this cartoon - there was only a single redeeming factor in this movie: the effects. Elements are bended, glowy tattoos glow, but for 12$ a ticket, I feel ripped off and Shyamalan owes me 2 hours of my life back. The universe was already built, the story already written, HOW THE BLOODY FUCKING HELL DO YOU SCREW THAT UP??? HOW!
atthequillsmercy: (Default)
The website is semi functional. The most important part is that the Dreamhunter page works. :)

This Saturday, a preview of my steampunk in progress: "Go Away Girls"

It’s when the pipes hiss that she hates living here. A high pitched wail echoing off the buildings and all the animals cry in response, creating one big auditory torture device out of the city. The vaguely human shaped puddle at her feet didn’t inspire any ballads about Trixa, either.

I have more but I'm not telling. Neener, neener. XD


Jun. 30th, 2010 07:59 pm
atthequillsmercy: (FAIL)
So I'm sitting here, typing up my hard copy of Greenhouse and - I'm sure every writer says this at some point but - this sucks. Big time. Now, I knew this going to be a lot of work because this part of the hard copy I wrote during NaNoWriMo and it's more brain vomit than polished prose but WOW.

It's so bad, I'm not even THINKING of editing it right now. There's just no point. Besides, in a certain mood, cleaning up and fleshing out scenes is really fun. Even the really difficult ones are like a puzzle and it gives me this great "ah HA" moment that's completely worth the work. :)

That said, I better get back to it.


Jun. 30th, 2010 03:09 am
atthequillsmercy: (Lenore)
I'm having one of those spells where I spend more time staring at the wall than writing. I crank out a couple choice sentences and then nada.

I'm sure my inspiration will strike at a completely inopportune time. Until then, I suppose I'll keep editing and typing up what I've written. Somehow, typing up what I've written always shakes something loose.

And don't ask me how the website is coming along. I'll get there. :p
atthequillsmercy: (Hypatia of Alexandria)
While I work on the website (torture I tellz ya), here's a bit to keep ya busy. >}

             He rises from the cold slab, burnt, decaying, crackling as the crust that was once soft, silky flesh breaks when he moves.  The nurse takes a deep breath to scream out her horror, but she makes the big mistake of catching his eyes, still intact, still brighter than any violet stone set in metal.  She lets her scream out in a rush of a sigh, her skin reddening and warming, lust overtaking nausea.

            He ambles over to her, and she flattens herself against a wall, knocking something nondescript on the floor.  His desire inflames hers and she shivers when his labored breath dances across her neck, though it gurgles from his nose.

            “I will not take what is not freely given.”  His voice jangles his vocal chords, and he speaks overly slow to make himself understood.  “Will you give me what I need?”

            She wants to, with all her being, she wants to give those eyes whatever they want.  A face flashes though her mind, important but undetailed in the second it takes to pass and her head shakes in the negative in such a small degree, only he can tell she’s even done it.

            “Very well.”  He says, his mouth traveling away from her head entirely.  He succumbs to his own weight, kneeling clumsily and taking her soft hand in his own to kiss a band on her left hand.  When she sighs in disappointment, he says “Your loyalty to your man has saved your life tonight.  Buy your man a flower when you return home.  Place it on a tray with his breakfast when he wakes.”

            When she gathers herself enough to look where those lips have touched her, he is gone.

atthequillsmercy: (Default)
"Dreamhunter" has been updated with chapter 11 and I fixed the code so all the text is one color. This weekend, I will once again tackle building the website. Each chapter will have its own page instead of my audience being forced to scroll through the whole story over and over again

Now, off to write! I have 16 pages to get through before tonight. I'm goin out! >D


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